Reality check

Okay, so it's been a rough week. A rough week I created though. It's not like anything bad happened or that...it's been busy, but not bad. I have been struggling big time with the eating, but I have been logging 98% of what I have been eating. However, I haven't gained weight this week...I haven't lost either. SO I am still sitting at a 3 pound loss. I haven't worked out and that was getting to me. I just didn't care. I feel frustrated with myself over not doing much this week. I mean, essentially that is 4 missed work outs :( That's muscle that could have been building and fat that could have been lost. Today I turned it around...I woke up and I ate a cookie. I thought to myself, is this the way to start out the day? HECK NO! So...I counted that for my breakfast and got started on purging the house for a yard sale tomorrow. I was all cranky over Adam's work schedule and my friend Jessica said "Work out, it will make you feel better". So...I thought why not? It can't hurt right? Today I decided to wear my HRM to just see how many calories I was burning. I haven't been wearing it lately because it's sometimes super annoying. Well...Today I did and man I felt like a bad ass after my workout. I did a hour long strength and cardio DVD and then did 2 miles on a Leslie Sansone DVD. Drum roll please...642 calories smashed! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!

So, now feeling refreshed and motivated (and I won't be annoyed that if I stuck with the eating this week, I could be 2 lbs lighter) I have decided to set mini goals for myself for the summer. I feel like not seeing some people for awhile gives me a chance to work hard and look better the next time I see them. So for example, my friend Kelly left today. I won't see her until early July when I come back from NJ. I plan to be comfortably in my size 12's when I see her.
Here are my mini goals...
I have 13 days until NJ. Last time I saw everyone I was not working out and at my absolute heaviest because of taking the Paxil. I gained 18 lbs on it and went off it while I was in NJ. So, my goal is to work out hard and keep logging calories so I can maybe have 5 lbs off and just look a little healthier by the time I get there. We are driving, so I am also going to buy tons of pre packaged fruit, granola bars, string cheese and the like for the car. Normally, I buy tons of junk. So this will hopefully work out well!
Once I get to NJ, it will be about 20 days until Adam comes up for our vacation. I can make a lot happen in 20 days :) So my goal is to go to Cooper River 5 days a week up there, my sister will be at my moms and hopefully she can watch the kids for me to go up there for an hour or so. It's a 4 mile walk around the river, so I would love to just keep running it until I can run at least 2 miles around without stopping. I am bringing a few weight DVDs so on the days I am bored with nothing to do, I can work out. I am also hoping to calorie count while I am there, so when I see Adam, he is shocked with the changes in me. I would LOVE if I could pick him up from the airport in a cute outfit that is currently a little snug. I have about 4 pairs of cute shorts that are all a little bit too tight. If I could wear one of those to the air port, I will be happy!
Once Adam gets there, we have our family vacation. I plan on bringing a lot of fruit and easy but healthy things along. We are going to the shore with his mom and will be at the camp ground. If we can, I plan on trying to run a few days the week we are down there.
Then we come home and hopefully, I have lost weight at the end of all of this and not gained anything. I always gain 5 lbs when I am home. I am hoping to come home 5 lbs lighter all together.
I then look to later in the summer when we hopefully see our friends in NC. Hopefully I can lose a little weight by then as well. My biggest goal is to have lost 13 lbs total by my 31st birthday. I have a thing with numbers lol. So essentially, I have 10 lbs to go at this point by August 13th. I can totally do this!